In the stillness of the night,
Do you hear my voice
Calling out your name
Wishing you sweet good night?
Amidst both hushed voices and the noise
I gently whisper your name.
As you cuddle in your bed
And quietly close your eyes
Remember what I have said
In prayer does your soul find
Release from all the day’s troubles
Relief from the day’s thorns and stubbles.
In the midst of your deepest dreams
I pray we both are joyfully together
Away from the cares of reality
Unaware of time, but only of forever
For only in this can I hopefully
Hold you and have you, so it seems.
Isn’t it incredulous and incredible
That a feeling so persistent like this could exist?
One I never even thought at all possible
To be felt and experienced, I resist!
Great is the struggle, the tension too strong –
Pray’r that’s been uttered for far too long!
Can a song be sung without its melody?
Can the moon shine without the sun?
Can there be waves without the wind?
What is this thing that speaks to me,
That touches my heart like nothing can?
It comes and seeks me unceasingly!
And yet when I try to reach out
As a flower would towards the sun,
I grasp nothing but empty air –
In pain I cry and shout,
But he does not hear
Nor does he care.
So I retreat to my world of silence
Where nothing is seen, heard nor spoken,
Better to have the empty, lonely absence
Than seek for a far-reaching heart
That can never be given!
But here in my dreams we meet,
The only place I dare to visit,
Where anything and everything is possible,
Where hopes and prayers join and meet
Where the world is bright and beautiful.
(West Jakarta, 7 January ’05, 3.30 am)
Amazed & Awed 